Update 1/19/24 - Farewell to Retiring Doctor

I will miss my psychiatrist who is retiring at the end of the month. I knew that my final appointment, which was yesterday, would be a triggering event for another update. I do feel like I know better how I feel about things today because of the final appointment.

The good doctor is the person who gets me to dig the deepest into my soul, that has calcified feelings about my thoughts and reconciliations. The only other person who got me to dig this deeply was my communications and English teacher, Gwen Towey. 

When the doctor got down to how I was doing mental health wise, I said something that I have been holding in for a couple of months: I believe I am done spending time and money on trying to not die. I will still update the blog with details as they emerge, but it is going to be more about how I feel, and less about the results of tests, as they become less frequent.

As it is, my weight today is 157.4 pounds, so it is holding steady. I am comfortable, but cold. The weather has made it such that I am spending little time outside. I am either reading, writing, or resting under my comforter. 

I was able to praise Nurse Lisa for being on top of potential problems. I told him that she got me in a day early because the weather was going to turn bad. It's a good thing she did that, he told me. The building flooded the day before, so they were scrambling to find places to do injections. My next appointment is on Valentine's Day, and I will remember what she did by getting me in a day early!